I am drained. I try to tell myself that I’m okay and that I can do this, but I know I can’t. I go through periods of joy and periods of depression. The other day I wrote a bible verse on a chalk board behind my door. It says, “Jesus said, ‘It is finished.’ John 19:30”. It is a verse that shakes me and sometimes even gives me chills. It reminds me that it is finished. No matter what I have done, and no matter what I do: it is finished. My sins are forgiven because Jesus died bearing the sins of the world on his shoulders. He was the ultimate sacrifice, and He is risen. So I can be sure that even through my periods of joy and extreme sadness, I can count on that promise. The promise that it is finished. And it will be. Forever.
“When He had received the drink, Jesus said, ‘It is finished.’ With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.”
I’m still learning to love and forgive myself completely. But I know that through it all Jesus loves me, and that is the only sure thing I can count on.